Never felt scared for a long time..
i never knew that things can be this hard..
i never felt the hardship of life for ages..
my life was just plain simple..
i knew what i want..
i knew my own limit..
i knew what i can have..
Now its like its out of my control..
like i’m on a crashing plane with no parachute..
somehow i think “why the hell did i get on the plane”..
but i knew…
sooner or later i got to face it..
sooner or later i will be on a plane..
sooner or later its up to me to crash or not..
i dont know if i can do all this on my own..
why that i never felt someone will be there for me..
why that i’m so alone right now..
why is someone that helps me isn’t the one i hope for..
Am i making a mistake?..
people told me that i’m making a mistake..
but i shut my ears..
people show me that it would be disaster..
but i shut my eyes..
I just dont know..
I maybe just dont care..
I’m probably digging my own grave..
I surely can survive this..